I have no clue what I am doing. I want to learn until I don’t have to question anything anymore. I want to drop out before i even start, I want to get on a plane without knowing where it’s headed. I want to spend my life on a warm sunny beach and a dark icy wasteland. I want to sleep on park benches. I don’t want to make money. I want to change something, anything. I want to major in Philosophy, Life, Love, Past, Present, Understanding. “These are technically great, but where are you in this?” Its cute, it means nothing. I have all these anti-consumerist ideas, yet I’m more of the problem than the solution. I want to drop off the grid, rid myself of the media, of corporations stalking me through the websites I frequent, but I’m terrified of losing touch with anyone.

 

Even though my external appearance rarely changes and my attitude only falters slightly, my internal perception of myself changes constantly. Some days I am a crusty punk, stomping through the woods, playing in train tracks and living under bridges. Some days I’m an eternally pretentious little indie kid, sometimes I’m a social recluse leaving my room for nothing. However, most of the time I’m just my socially awkward self: that girl who laughs too loud and walks into doors. its kind of like having a split personality disorder, but without the luxury of assurance that comes with an unsteady mind. 

Its almost summer, i promise.

I apologize for the fact that this thing has been very close to dead for quite a bit of time now. i’ll use the excuse of college stuff, I’m still trying to figure out where i want to go. Its a terribly important decision that I’m not entirely sure i am equipped to make at this point in my life. 

anyway, i plan to start updating more regularly now that things have calmed down a bit.  

 

 

i have had three supremely nice days in a row.

 Thursday being kidnapped by Greg and Rosie was probably the coolest and most aimless thing, and TVs in cars are the nicest.

Yesterday wandering along train tracks into other counties and finding future homes under bridges was informative and there will most definitely be a solid structure built there. 

Riding bikes and drinking hot chocolate today was tres cool, even my smooth as hell dismount on to a friends front lawn. 

content would be the best way to describe myself at this point in time.  

AP art is kicking my ass.  

Happy Valentines Day

this is Eugene, the lonely valentines moose.

Classic

in 1947, a movie by the name “Dark Passage” was released. it stared two of the hottest stars of the time, the ever-dashing Mr. Bogart, and the stunningly beautiful Ms. Bacall. the main character was Vincent Parry(Bogart), a man who had been wrongly accused of murder, and had escaped from jail to have massive amounts of plastic surgery and take his revenge on the person who framed him. then through some complex set of circumstances Irene Jansen (Bacall) falls in love with him, and an entirely different woman throws herself out a window.
THAT is a true classic cinematic experience.

do you know what else is classic?

Chocolate chip cookies.

Simply chocolate chip cookies

Ingredients:
- 2 1/4 cups of unbleached white flour
- 1 tsp baking soda
- 1/2 tsp salt
- 1 stick (1/2 cup) vegan margarine (I use “soy garden”)
- ¼ cup shortening
- 3/4 cup brown sugar
- 3/4 cup granulated sugar
- 1 tsp vanilla extract
- ½ a package of silken tofu, blended
- I bag Vegan chocolate chips (can be found at whole foods)

Preheat oven to 375ºF

Step 1: in a small bowl mix flour, baking soda, and salt. In a large bowl mix margarine, , sugar, vanilla, and tofu. Slowly mix the flour mixture into the large bowl (preferably by hand with a fork). And add chocolate chips.
Step 2: place tablespoon-sized dollops of dough on greased cookie sheet and bake for 9-11 min, or until golden brown. Cool on a wire rack and enjoy.

Recommended Listening: “Dear catastrophe waitress” – Belle and Sebastian

Snickerdoodles

and so it begins. i’ve decided to take the plunge and start a blog.
these are vegan snickerdoodles, my father wrote the original recipe and i made a lot of necessary changes to veganize it. i am most proud of these, hence why i have started off with them.
once, when i was staying with a friend in Seattle (Wa) and in the middle of a midnight game of crazy eights (a midnight game involving quite a large amount of wine) i was ordered to make these, and therefore spent the next couple hours in the kitchen making batch after batch of the (now) famous snickerdoodles for my very drunk acquaintances.
enough rambling, here’s the recipe:

Snickerdoodles

Ingredients:
1 ½ cups sugar
½ cup unsalted vegan Margarine
½ cup vegetable shortening
½ a package of silken tofu, blended
2 ½ cups unbleached flower
2 teaspoons cream of tarter
1 teaspoon baking soda
¼ teaspoon salt
¼ cup sugar mixed with 2 teaspoons ground cinnamon

Preheat oven to 400ºF

Step one: mix sugar, margarine, shortening, and tofu well in a large bowl.
Step two: stir flour, cream of tarter, baking soda, and salt into the mixture. Form into 1 ¼ inch balls
Step three: mix ¼ cup sugar and cinnamon, roll the balls in mixture and place 2 inches apart on an un greased cookie sheet. Bake 8-10 min,
Step four: cool for about 1 min, then transfer to a cooling rack to cool completely, enjoy.

Recommended listening: “Prom night at hater high”- Say Hi to your mom